There are a lot of cliches of which I am aware but have never viscerally got. I can understand them intellectually and picture what I think they would look like, but I don’t feel them so much (this is one of the main reasons I am so horrible at acting, and partially to blame for my lack of affect).

One of these phrases that I knew but never knew relates to someone with a “haunted look” in their eyes. I can picture the famous 10,000 yard stare of the soldiers with shellshock in WW1, but I never really understood on a molecular level quite what that phrase meant or what that looked like on a real person.

Until I saw myself in the mirror this morning.

Which was weird, since I don’t particularly think of myself as haunted. Just stressed. Anyway, I was looking at myself and I thought, now there is the definition of someone who looks haunted. Wait, that’s you! WTF?

We’re now entering the “batshit crazy” portion of my program, please fasten your seatbelts.

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